The Train

There is something seriously humbling about standing beside the train as it races past.
It shakes my bones and leaves me with a craving for adventure and freedom.
As it slows by the station, I imagine myself hopping one of those cars and just letting the ride take me wherever.

So let life happen like a train.
Let life take you where it pleases.
All you have to do is jump on that boxcar and let the train tracks do the rest.
Don’t forget you can get off whenever you please.
You can also change stations and take another train in the opposite direction, if you wish.
Or you can just hop off and walk a while.

As I stood there, with the whistle blasting through my headphones and into my cells.
Reverberating its rhythm throughout my entire being.
It shook me to the core and left me unpretentious.

Hope

Rain today. Grey and wet and hopeful I leave my house to hand in yet another job application. I go into a local coffee shop to ask if they’re hiring, but I already know the answer, “No, sorry” says the man behind the counter. So I buy a cup of coffee, “Just cream, thanks” and fill out an application anyway. There’s no harm in trying I tell myself. I stare out the window of the café and wished I were in Paris. Wished I were away from “real life” and on a wild adventure, not caring, not calculating, not wanting things I cannot have. My id is taking over and I want immediate gratification. NOW! I hate waiting. It’s probably the least favorite thing I have on my list. It shouldn't even BE on the list.
So, now I wait. I wait and I write and I decide to be creative instead of wallowing in despair. I decided to be creative today rather than let mildew grow on my heart and brain while waiting for life to happen to me.
After finishing the last dregs of grounds and milk, I handed over my application and gave the guy unwrapping bagels the most courageous and courteous smile I cold muster. Knowing he was not hiring. In return he gave a genuine grin and his kind eyes gave me hope, maybe, just maybe… give me something I can work with.